this is my time
- Amber Byers
- Jul 31
- 2 min read
Updated: Aug 7

this is my time
to waste
or lavish
as I see fit
so don't tell me
how
time flies when you're having fun
how
it won't wait for anyone
how
the time is ripe
to have the time of your life
I don't need to hear
how I'll make it to the big time
all in due time
because time has already dropped
into my lap
like golden seeds of melon
full and heavy
with potential
so round
they could burst
and I—
I lie back
spit the seeds into the dawn of time
with no more hope that they'll take hold in the sallow dirt
than my decision on my next breath
to close my eyes
and weep
I warned you this wasn't a happy poem,
didn't I?
of course I did!
don't make me come back there
wading through dry sands of time
and change my mind
my memory
your understanding
of the meaning
because I'd do it
you know I would
and wouldn't we both regret it then?
they say you can see clearer
looking backward
well, I hold my mirror up
to see ancient mountains
that fell to boulderous rubble
that became rough rocks
that scraped hands and broke to pebbles
that tumbled downhill
cascading into sands of time in the shape of a mirror
reflecting myself
back out to me
but if it's all an illusion
a circular force of time
how daring it must be
to try to stop the free fall
pull a shard
touch a rock
kick it out to space again
a dangerous folly
yet aptly done
now leave me be
so I can waste some more
on my own time
"this is my time" is a poem by Amber Byers, 2025